我要你。

难得的华语~

还有一个月就要迎接2014年了。我们在每一个年尾承诺了很多to -do list.你完成了吗？
如果你完成了，恭喜你，你可以面对下一个对自己的承诺。
如果你没有，没关系，再加多一条吧！ （我就是这一类）

明年我就要22岁了。（天………………）

我重新想过我的to -do list了。我不再想那么多。我只要简单的日子。
就在这一年，我面对了分离后，在遇见的恋情。（我知道很复杂）
这一次，就看看我的修行有多高了。因为，我真的真的很想这个人，是我的最后一次。
我可以再看看外面的，但我懒惰了。眼前，就有一个让我去努力付出。一个，就够了。
跟他在一起，我真的很快乐。然后他的家人，是另外一个我可以共享我开放的思想。
所以，我很满足。而且这个情人，让我重新找回纯恋爱的滋味。（我知道我很肉麻）
他，初恋。我，第三。
冲动的家伙，脾气暴躁的家伙。

我喜欢孩子。所以到了这个年纪，我们可以开始找对象了。
我多希望，可以跟随一个不怕我的玩笑的人过一世人。只要，上进。

you and i

Nightmare makes me awake

i hv no idea wat to write
but i just wish that i can go through the things that make me fear
i felt helplessness now
but i believe i will go through it for my dream
and last chance is given for me on 31st
cmon voutayn, drive for ur dream, n ur love one

Actually Black in My Stomach

Hey, who ever knows me very long time, do you ever think that Im look like an angel when I smile and dress up nicely? XD

Cant believe what im saying right? Actually Im one of the kind of full of many ideas to fool on people. Even I dress up, still Im feel happy when Im successfully fooled someone!

Dont so easy to chaet by my look stranger, and my friends, you would never know when is your turn ha!

What I Like To Complaint?

We used to complain everyday. Observe yourself, how many complains you did/do per day?

I used to complain:

• I'm tired, I'm so sleepy.
• I'm bankrupt d.
• I'm hungry.
• I don't feel like want to eat alone.
• Aiyo!
• Who who who ah, do like that can meh?
• Helo, are you sure?

But, I also used to add: WTF?! WTH?! F*** you! and some Chinese words.

Hmm,

Actually I'm not only complain all those common one as I mentioned. Sometimes I'm feel admire on others instead those words are considered as complain. For example, " yo, you guys are so sweet" on couples, " so nice to have a date," also on couples, " I wish to have somebody to love and love me as well," for myself.

There is not wrong with single life. I also enjoy those I can't do when I ever have boyfriend. Such as clubbing, alcoholic (don't worry, I'm not addicted), go out with my friends frequently. Perhaps, it is considered as not good (family) or over freedom in many people mind. I prefer to join boy or girls with boy styles instead of polite, gentle girls. XD Seriously, or girls that got same topic of gossips! When you have boyfriend, you gotta be spend most of the time with him even didn't meet up. Call, text, share. Haha, now, I'm a kind of wish to be loved and still I wish to get lots of freedom before I really step into new chapter of my life.

Bcoz we learnt from past, and we getting realism day by day. There was a story between me and my elder sis. She did asked : why you keep make up recently when you go out with **** and wearing dress frequently?

Oh no! She is comparing my ex with ****. Hmm, a good question that we can consider what to do. But would you like to wear dress and make up when you go out for date with a motorcycle? And I'm a great "SWEAT-ER". So, I'm admitted that I do realistic in this matter. Who don't want to get better one? We are improving every day and time!

* Lol, a lot rubbish talk that out of the topic of complaining. Actually, I'm complaining. ^^

Gonna get a longer topic, and don't out of topic anymore. XD
Nite peeps!

mempersiasuikan...

Aiyo, everyone knows how to say "sia sui" and then it develops into "mempersiasuikan".

Today got a friend read my blog. I got something that don't feel like want to let him know. And somemore my grammar is poor enough. LOL! what to do, he read! *shy!

Again and again

John Mayer - Who you love

I do believe u heard that. Once again I made a mistake, a stupid mistake that again drop myself into depress n tonight I believe is another insomnia.

I do chase a boy when i was secondary school time. I would like to say I'm action without consider, I just want to love him. And after go through few Bf, I found chase a boy is a really stupid action. But now, I meet a guy that again makes my heart bloom like a rose. He is gentle, bringing happiness, open minded. And he does giving me feelings of sweet and protective guy, it is never mind that he is not strong enough. I did try my best to tell him all about me feelings and my mind, but I dont know how to tell that the fello is him. I'm not brave enough, I just wish he will get what i meant...and respond.

Leona Lewis - Brave

Ya, u r giving me some messages, u need a break.

Demi Lovato - Give your heart a break

U cant just get out from the past, u do tell u need some times, I believe that, the times, will never and ever prove. So, I should learn how to give up for, again.

We r not strong enough to go towards each other. Is the time to say, Goodbye.

郭修彧 - Mission incomplete

某种冲动

我好久没上载新消息了……

其实我是个非常冲动的人， 我非常想尝试vlog的滋味……
很快我就会实现，虽然我会很害羞……

SERIOUSLY, IMMA IN BAD MOOD!!!

Ok, today's topic will stick my mood... because of the mood, I had the idea to write it down..I just want to get a space for myself to breath freely~~~

Again, I have to say that we are all adults, should not behaving like a kid  - childish. I'm from a normal family, because of family background and socio-economic, I have my own car and don't even had chance to learn driving skill yet. So i accept and admit this is my faith, within the diploma life, I have to always get help from parents, relative or friends to bring me home and back to campus. For these 3 years, I got lots of help from friends (I don't know should I put them as friends or not) and I feel thankful for that. BUT, may be everyone is too mature, so, sometimes they don't willing to help. Perhaps is the communication problem, so I did made a mistake and caused someone don't really like me...For this, I don't think that I have to pay all for that.

I'm a person who is straight forward, and sometimes my words do hurt people. But most of the time, I don't mean to hurt anyone. I'm a person who like to share whatever I want. Like I'm single now, I don't think that's any wrong with that. In fact, I'm really single.

Actually what happened is, because of exam, I'm staying together with some friends as I am not a hosteller for my school anymore. But, still I sneak into the hostel as they will be going home for few days, I don't really like to stay alone in a strange place and also it is hard for me to get a proper meal. Just now from my coursemate, I knew they are back to SP because they want to meet my coursemate as I mentioned. I was think, may be they will pass something to her then again they go back to hometown. So, I did call my friends, and ask Is it poosible for them to bring me back from hostel? Seriously, I don't mind if they say can't. I had prepared myself for the answer. But what I get? they said can't as they are not going to campus. The coming sentences that made me felt disrespectful is: Why not you come along with *** now?
And the tone is like blaming. WHAT?! Cannot then cannot, I wish to ask you too: Why not you tell me that you all are coming back here and so that I can get prepare? Do you all even gave me a chance for this?!
I admit did a wrong hypnosis, but still I don't agree that the issue has to become like unfriendly!

Everytime, when I'm in bad mood, most of the friends will joke at me: Please don't commit suicide la!
Sure I won't do this, but sometimes I will just be sad and depress because of friends. We know each other for 3 years, but why we have to become like this? I did send s message to my elder sis. and I express all my feeling inside. Ya, why we have to be kind with people? Is ok we get nothing but are we suppose to be treat like this? Seriously, I feel depress in FRIENDS!!!