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Saturday, March 23, 2013

SERIOUSLY, IMMA IN BAD MOOD!!!

Ok, today's topic will stick my mood... because of the mood, I had the idea to write it down..I just want to get a space for myself to breath freely~~~

Again, I have to say that we are all adults, should not behaving like a kid  - childish. I'm from a normal family, because of family background and socio-economic, I have my own car and don't even had chance to learn driving skill yet. So i accept and admit this is my faith, within the diploma life, I have to always get help from parents, relative or friends to bring me home and back to campus. For these 3 years, I got lots of help from friends (I don't know should I put them as friends or not) and I feel thankful for that. BUT, may be everyone is too mature, so, sometimes they don't willing to help. Perhaps is the communication problem, so I did made a mistake and caused someone don't really like me...For this, I don't think that I have to pay all for that.

I'm a person who is straight forward, and sometimes my words do hurt people. But most of the time, I don't mean to hurt anyone. I'm a person who like to share whatever I want. Like I'm single now, I don't think that's any wrong with that. In fact, I'm really single.

Actually what happened is, because of exam, I'm staying together with some friends as I am not a hosteller for my school anymore. But, still I sneak into the hostel as they will be going home for few days, I don't really like to stay alone in a strange place and also it is hard for me to get a proper meal. Just now from my coursemate, I knew they are back to SP because they want to meet my coursemate as I mentioned. I was think, may be they will pass something to her then again they go back to hometown. So, I did call my friends, and ask Is it poosible for them to bring me back from hostel? Seriously, I don't mind if they say can't. I had prepared myself for the answer. But what I get? they said can't as they are not going to campus. The coming sentences that made me felt disrespectful is: Why not you come along with *** now?
And the tone is like blaming. WHAT?! Cannot then cannot, I wish to ask you too: Why not you tell me that you all are coming back here and so that I can get prepare? Do you all even gave me a chance for this?!
I admit did a wrong hypnosis, but still I don't agree that the issue has to become like unfriendly!
Everytime, when I'm in bad mood, most of the friends will joke at me: Please don't commit suicide la!
Sure I won't do this, but sometimes I will just be sad and depress because of friends. We know each other for 3 years, but why we have to become like this? I did send s message to my elder sis. and I express all my feeling inside. Ya, why we have to be kind with people? Is ok we get nothing but are we suppose to be treat like this? Seriously, I feel depress in FRIENDS!!!