may be the last post in 2012

hi readers, this may be my last post before 2012. What's ur wish in coming year? I wish i can get thinner successfully with devil "S" body shape.. XD LOL! but seriously i hope it will be grand. How was ur Christmas celebration? i do nothing, just stay in Alor Setar spent my day.

By the way, 4th week posting started by 2moro, i cant wait that Marc. 2013 come faster. As i hope i can leave hospital a.s.a.p.. Y? because i dont like the way they behaving lazy.. But, i still got another 10 weeks to go..

im will be stepping into 21 once new year. Hmm, 21, sometimes i feel that it is so horrible, terrible and vegetable. I shouldnt behave like a kid after this. I should think positive, make my look getting better than look tired and gain pimples day by day. I did hardworking in skin care, i should concern in my body care too. I swear, i will start my keep thin daily meal from 2moro, and it is unstoppable till i hit my target which is 52kg. Now im in 60kg. I know, the amount that i show is unbelievable.

so shy to share any photo here. again, i swear, it is true, ME, YES, TAT'S ME, GOING TO START TO IKAT PINGGAN.. NOT BECAUSE OF BROKE, BUT FOR MY BODY SHAPE!!!

everyone is worried about my body shape and body weight. Actually im getting scared when i noticed i cant wear a dress nicely. Even my frens said i was look sexy last time with bodycon. In Alor Setar, there's lot of delicious foods, me as a food hunter, also have to look further dream than the nearest one.

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And, im a clubber ( i dunno izit am i right to say im the people that used to clubbing), i got few hot songs to introduce here, i like to listen to these kind of songs as it makes me feel freedom around and relaxing. Sometimes it makes me hard to concentrate on study, but still i love it and when im listening to music, i will raise the volume to get stimulate my dancing cells and make them get excited. Some music u will not get in club, but from movie, which is 喜爱夜蒲 (Lan Kuai Fong)

1. Get crazy  - 喜爱夜蒲2

2. LKF party people - 喜爱夜蒲2

3. We are the party - The Ex Girlfriends

4. Lovey dovey - T-ara

5. Oppa gangnam style - Psy & Hyuna (both version)

6. Turn up the love - Far East Movement

7. Ice cream - Hyuna

8. Run - Redfoo and Flo Rida

9. Timebomb - Kylie Minogue

10. Riverside - Sidney Samson

11. Follow the leader - J.Lo, Wisin & Yandel

seriously, i like all of them.. u can go to listen if u like it too. ^^

ok, that's what im going to say today. Happy New Year, and wish all my readers good luck.. Even we go through hard time, we will face the sunshine one day. Love u.

他的命运

今天我不快乐，因为有人就快破坏我对病人的鼓励。正当我尽我所能而告诉他，会好起来的，而有人却搞破坏！不管病人情况怎样，你就向他宣布结局么？他的命运，他的生命，他做主，而不是拼了命让他希望破灭！

你不是非常孝顺的咩？怎么会这样告诉他？

few steps into 21

hi reader, do u miss me?
ahaha, again i missed lots of post to tell the stories..
no worries, this time will not be sad announcement anymore, i wanna be a person who is try to be stay happy for future life..we should think positive all the time, now lets talk about 2012 rumors..

2012 rumors
yes, everyone starts countdown for death..what's the point? why dont u take the time to enjoy whatever u like, u love or u want for so long time? yes, we dont know will it happen, or it may 3 darkness of life, still we must face it. :-) yes, my wish is if i really have to die, i wan to die together with the love one. no matter we are going to heaven or hell..

about 21, i knw i knw, still 1/2 yr yet, i admit tat im old.

yes, i should thanks for the god, i hv a family and bf tat support me all the time. even harder one, i should felt thankful..and best frens! i use to go club, food hunter......................i knw, many ppl thinking club in very negative way. but wat we do? have fun, have our nights and joy thr la..i knw it is a bad place too, but i enjoy. so, i hope tat no more objection.

now im posting at Alor Setar, in Hosp. Sultanah Bahiyah. wat a big hosp., i enjoy thr..even though it is the worst or it is the best hosp. and after posting, final exam then i will officially diploma graduate! and another mission in my life is: go for degree..look higher!

many relatives n my parents wish tat i can get marry to a dr. or anyone from hosp...i understand wat they wish good things happen on me, i knw, my bf just a little chef. in others eyes, we are such a big gap no matter in education or occupation. i dont care, as long as he cares and loves me..

for me, marry to a dr. is a most diff. thing in my life. since child, i dont wish to be a dr. at all...not fun, boring for me..so dr. outside thr but i never meet any young dr. who are very manners and respectful. some did well, but may be we r misunderstand. ^^ nevermind, be frens will be better!

彷徨

是真的不在乎吗？还是我们都已经变了？变质了，对吗？

with new life back from sarawak

my reader, im back.. im glad tat im able to continue my blog writing as some incidents happened in sarawak. im fine now, dont worry. i oso enjoy the trip n it is best. i get sunburn during jungle trekking n it was not cause my skin peel off. thanks for everyone tat concern and my frens who plan the trip.  :-D

背叛

已经20岁，我，你和他都经历背叛了吗？

有的童鞋请举手！！！

我有，不管严重不严重，

我都不会原谅背叛我的人……

背叛可以发生在友情，爱情，事业和家庭

我经历的只有前两者，很痛的！

为什么？我是个感情洁癖的人……

我不能容下眼里的沙，所以我需要的是‘过滤水’……

男生有那个不风流？好男人太难找了……

我总是觉得没安全感，所以，成熟稳重的男生适合我……

以前，我总是觉得太老的好像很奇怪……

可是最近流行老少恋，我没有什么赞和批评

我想说的是：爱情没对错……

最重要的是两人珍惜，一起努力这段爱情……

我自认我的爱情不完美，因为有很多因素，我们只能保留经常不见面的习惯……

会不会在过程当中遇到其他人呢？我们也不知道……

我多么的希望我们可以经常好好说话，

但总违愿……

而且，我也太容易成为色狼的目标……

虽然没下手，但语言方面已经彻彻底底的告诉我……

有些人甚至让我难以置信……

亲爱的朋友，看到这个的话要帮帮忙……留言给意见嘛……

难道你要眼睁睁看着你的buddy跌入陷阱？

我很接受不到这个事实……

还是因为我的行为让人误会了？什么还偷偷望着我……

最佳爱情

我现在才来用两天的时间追完这部戏
我觉得这是我看过其中一部不错的韩国戏
从中，我发现到我总爱“迷恋”高高的肌肉男，
无论什么戏，都是一样  “我知道我很花痴……”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krQdDuWdjXU

这首歌是我的最爱，因为这首歌简简单单的说出我对他想说的话……爱爱爱！

贱人？奸人？

最近我真的变了，变到越来越“衰格”
虽然，我还是改不了冲动的个性，但我始终希望会有人明白这种心情。因为， 很多事情累积起来会崩溃的，所以，有时真的不得你不出口伤人。出口伤人并不是百分之百的错，在我的个人立场和角度，是出于自卫，但也不要过于自取其辱……

smile to let go

不要
把脸藏在月光背后
有谁在意我们的生活
坐在安静角落
该为这一刻找个解脱不要
你眼里伪装的内疚
该是自己幸福的时候
静静地想一想
谁会追求刻意的温柔
你伤害了我
还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 只怪自己 爱你所有的错
你伤害了我 还一笑而过 你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 刻骨铭心 就这样被你一笑而过
心碎千百遍 任谁也无法承担 想安慰自己的语言
你伤害了我 还一笑而过 你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱 眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 只怪自己 爱你所有的错
你伤害了我 还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱眼泪流过 回忆是多余的 刻骨铭心 就这样被你一笑而过
刻骨铭心 就被你一笑而过

by 那英

this song is very very long time d..
may be i'm really getting older.. ^^
recently i found is people mind lao beh or i'm really old for my junior?
some juniors (include i dont know kind) they like to act like wat we did previously when we were secondary school time, for example:
1. i do add u in FB, pls approve, i tot i saw u b4       (i admit i did b4, but when u come to U, do u think tat it is good to do so?)
2. i'm going to chase a girl, i plan to :  #&*&$#^)(*&$*()^      (some i understand, some i cant control to laugh)
3. hey, wat r u doing now? i gonna tell u wat girl i had met
4. i'm a love loyal guy.   (imagine u r drinking water n a cute tell u)

there are others too...takkan i have to list out all the funny words..
may be, my laugh can be hurt, but i just cant stand with tat, a junior even asked me: is tat funny?
actually is not funny, but if i flashback all the words he told so, sometimes the plan he wanted is quite a romantic, just my goosebumps pop out!!!
i'm sorry Ph1l1p, i'm dont mean to tease u and look down ur plan..
u din make frens with other guls, hope u dont be a playboy anymore,
if u like her, i will give u support, as long as u appreciate her... 
i dont mean to laugh one..just i felt "lao beh" XD

but for others, i'm speechless... i dunno who u r.. soli~

ok, updated~ mission completed~ gudnite ^_^

走到很多交叉的路口……

很快，这个最后第二个学期的实习又到来了……哈哈，又是另外小故事等着发生，虽然这并不关我的事，但要是讨论合作部分，就关我的是了……、

我始终就是这样，我的人生像颗足球…踢来踢去，进不了笼子就是输……我真的该争气点啊……每个人懂我的人都说我总是那么善良乐观，我不曾想过辜负你们对我的小小期望………但如果你的路途上总是有无名石头突然袭击你，久了是不是来个大反击？人的耐心是有限的，只是不懂几时大爆发……

最近很多事情一直在发生，我好累哦……哭也哭过了，但雪上加霜时，我哭得更惨！我真的不想再当傻瓜……我自觉快得到忧郁症了 （这是认真的）……我不可以说我活该，可是是都在告诉我活该……愿意为最亲的人是最懂你的人，结果在你失意的时候竟然对你破了多少同冰冷的水，我真的彻底失望了……感情，友情，家庭，我都在备受考验……我真的好想为自己来个独自旅行，我不会逃避问题，我也不曾逃避过……我真的很需要一个人静下来……

感情，我知道你很辛苦，但面子不能当饭吃……

友情，我知错了，以后再也不相信了……

家庭，在家感情混在一起，就是莫名其妙的痛啊……

我该怎么抉择？

no title..

i dunno wat were decay our feels..
i dunno wat to do next..
if the love is as a worry for my family,
wat will happen next between us..
again, i have to bear down my tears?

series got me to falling in love with vampires...

DO U KNOW TRUE BLOOD?

DO U KNOW THE VAMPIRE DIARIES?

DO U KNOW TWILIGHT?

IF U DUNNO, THEN U R TOTALLY OUT!!!

I WAN MY ENG. BCUM BETTER, SO I DECIDE TO WATCH SERIES,

1ST SERIES TAT I EVER ABLE TO FINISH IS TRUE BLOOD (SINCE 2008)

FOLLOWED BY THE VAMPIRE DIARIES..

NOW STILL I WAITING FOR TWILIGHT - BREAKING DAWN 2 TO FINISH THE STORY.. 

CANT WAIT FOR TRUE BLOOD SEASON 5..

I'M GOING TO SHARE U ABOUT THE MEN CHARACTERS TAT MAKE ME ENJOY THE SERIES..

FIRST, ERIC NORTHMAN ( BY ALEXENDER SKARSGARD )

HE HAS 193CM HEIGHT, 36 YRS OLD IN TIS YR..

HE GOT A GF.. ( SO BAD, I DONT HV CHANCES.. )

HE IS FROM SWEDEN, EUROPE

HE OSO PARTICIPATE IN BATTLESHIP, ACT AS ALEX HOPPER ELDER BROTHER... SO SAD HE DEAD IN THE MOVIE..

2ND, BILL COMPTON ( BY STEPEHN MOYER )

HE IS NOT BAD WHEN HE SHOWS HIS MAN..

ABT 180++CM, MARRIED WITH THE MAIN WOMAN CHARACTER IN TRUE BLOOD, SOOKIES STACKHOUSE ( BY ANNA PAQUIN )

3RD, HE IS NOT A VAMP, IS WOLFWARE, ALCIDE (I FORGET THE NAME)

SEE, NOT BAD.. ^^

BY THE WAY, THE THEME IS "IT HURTS SO GOOD"

THEME SONG IS BAD THING, I LIKE THE SENTENCE: I WANNA DO BAD THINGS WITH U~

OK, FOLLOWED BY THE VAMPIRE DIARIES,

I JUST WATCH FOR ABT 1 WEEK, I LOVE IT!!!

I WOULD LIKE TO INTRO ONE OF THE VAMP,

DAMON SALVATORE ( BY IAN SOMERHALDER )

NOW HE IS 34YRS OLD, OSO PARTICIPATE IN "LOST" TV DRAMA,

I EVEN READ VAMP. NOVEL,

EITHER CHINESE OR ENGLISH..

THEY R SO MYSTERY...

THEY R SO HANDSOME, ESPECIALLY ALEX. SKARSGARD,

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

OK, STAY TUNED FOR NEXT POST..

I'M SO SORRY TAT I HV BEEN IGNORE U,

BUT I DUNNO WAT TO SHARE AS MY LIFE IS SO SIMPLE..

GUD NIGHT!

not interesting like others do

hihi..i'm very sorry i have ignore you again my bloggie...seems a very long time i din update from my exam.. hmm, i had read others fren update, and i found tat mine is so so so ugly... i got to change the faces...

ya, i'm coming to my holidays almost 2 weeks, during tis hols, i work as freelancer as i wont get boring for working everyday, i can do anything as i like when i free..haha, i admit tat i'm a kind of lazy peepo..the duration of hols are 5 weeks, mostly i just eat n sleep...zzz... but, i oso flashback alot of things i did... thr are many peepo tat i hv to say TQ again!! i dont hv to list out..who ever help me go through my life, u r the one i would like to say TQ.. i ever hate u, u can just forget me... or ignore me...

a post on 17/2 early morning (4.++ am)

as u knw, i always slp b4 12am, but toda i dunno wat happened..
izit stress of exam, or the matter tat make me headache.

新年快乐！！！

对不起，这是迟来的祝福……

不过我希望所有读者帮个忙，为我的do-list加油：

1.增肥到54kg

2.增高到170cm

3.今年不会再跌体重·

4.cgpa要在增加

5.英文进步！！

今年的很少，我不求太多，

我知道体重和身高是太贪心了，

但没办法，我的愿望嘛……

在此祝所有人新年快乐，身体健康噢！！！ ^^